Reflection on Fear
My back is pressed against one of the many solid stone walls of the Abbey
My heart is beating fast because I’m afraid
There is unchartered territory that I have to explore
But my feet are rooted to the spot
Having the solidness at my back is slightly comforting
But I can’t stay like this forever
I must go on or I cannot grow
And if I don’t grow, I’ll be so unhappy
I need to find the courage from somewhere
But I’m not sure where
I know it cannot come from outside me
So that means it must come from inside me
Maybe I need to meditate right now
Maybe I need to pray
Maybe I just need to be quiet and listen
But I need to find it within myself to take that first step
The wall at my back vibrates in response
As the Abbey itself tries to help me on my quest
by Soultide
The Abbey walls will give you strength to release that which is inside you.
Vi
’tis said that ‘love’ is the only other true emotion than ‘fear’ — but our invasive culture has
diluted ‘love’ as a useful word, while ‘fear’ has been given sharper edges.
Cherish is a more useful term, perhaps –
of live and self and memories –
such that fear has no room or reason
thank you both.
There are many hands to hold as you charter, map and name new parts of yourself. We will be with you.
thanks Heather
Keep holding on and you will move through it.
Looks like you came through – or this old Abbey came through for you; either way I like the integrity of this piece.